i spent my last nite talking to a person i dear the most for the last time.. there is something inside me that is crying so loud that i can't hide it..
we would never come in contact anymore..all is left is this blog to express how i feel..listening to the songs that she has given me..reviving all of the memories i had with her..
i must admit writing blog is so much easier than expressing my feeling..i must thank a person who vents out all of her feelings into blog..first reading out her blog then i started to create my own blog for her..
after all life is a journey for us to learn new things..I learned that we are only the north and south pole of the world that are never meant to be together although we exists..this is the first day without her in mylife but my mind cannot stop thinking about her..but after all this is just a 'unfortunate meeting'..
i wish i could buid a time machine, travelling back to the past..then perhaps we would have different story to tell..I keep on asking myself, Is she Ok? how is she doing?..these questions may never be answered..if anyone reads this blog, please do not say that i am such a wimp..well we are weak when it comes to feeling..and if you could have felt what i had been through then you would have understood how i felt..
Amber Guo 'ben de ke yi' - surely stupid..i think i am the one who is surely stupid..i should have be honest with her..but i keep on hiding the facts..but nothing will change the fact that we are on our seperate way..seperate directions..
i wish she could feel how i feel about her..the way i felt for her..how much i love her? i wish her frens would at least support me..but they all turned against me..i have made the biggest mistake in my life..and i will never be able to change our story line unless i have the time machine..sounds pathetic but it is true..
