Last Day in Perth

Time has come to say good bye.. to Perth.. to all of my frens here.. the bitter sweet feeling is undescribable..

There are so many memories here..now i have to leave all of them behind..after today i will be in a new place..

but i am just hoping that it will be another journey for me to finish.. I pray that Buddha will give me strength and wisdom to walk my path..

Spare Time Lovers 分身情人

i have been listening to this song..such a beautiful song..i really want to say that to her.. let her know that i am willing to do that..

To see her smile..hold her hands..be there for her..but will i be able to do that.. i am so sad.. so lonely..grieving..thinking of wat we have become..

3 days more in Perth.. My heart reluctantly leaving Perth..this is not my choice but i need to walk my path..dunno whether this is the right path or not

Arrrrgggghhh!!!

There is no word to express how i feel..
finally being able to chat with her.. and yet we are fighting till the end..

why? i dunno the answer..i wish i knew but i dun..
why cant she listen to me for one last time?

2 more weeks..

Another 2 more weeks then i will be leaving Perth.. Going to a new place.. Place that i have no idea about..is it a new beginning or repeating the same event?

Been busy lately looking for jobs and place to rent..Geez!! it is so hard when u have limited budget..i can't believe this.. i will be living on tight budget again!!

It has been 3 days since our last contact..but i dunno i just can't get her out of my mind..evrysong i listen to..evry couple i see on the streets..evry movie i watch..remind me of her.. it is too late to apologize..too late to make up..we are drifting apart faster than anything.. i miss jj so much...

My blurry future...

have u ever worried about ur future? thinking about all possibilities.. good and bad.. hmm.. scary isn't it? maybe i am the type of person who thinks too much.. and all of the stuff happening around me really makes me wonder why..

sometimes i wish that i had no burden..a free man..or crying free man to be exact.. i have so many things to think about.. i have all of this pressure.. i dunno how long i can hold on.. but honestly speaking, i am losing my grip..i am tired of my life..

life is a bitch..

i dunno wat the hell am i doing here..bitching about my life.. well to be honest i dun have anything that is worth bitching about..

My life is so plain..i got nothing i could brag about..the person that i care the most called me liar..

am i a liar? hmm..the other day she called me hypocrite.. are those really description of me?

I am always proud of myself until i made one stupid mistake..and i am in the point of no return..i am devastated..i am bleeding but no one can see my blood..

I cannot tell evryone how i feel but i just dun want 'U' to judge me..i am in agony but no one understand my pain.. the feeling inside me is just killing me..

i shouldn't have taken anything for granted..but i did..there is no way for me to turn back time..there is no way for me to go back.. and i am losing her forever..