My mind tells me to let go, but my heart won't let me..

there is a time when logic and emotion clashes.. this is wat happens to me rite now..

I have no idea of wat to do.. i am suppose to make a decision and get on with it..but i am not..i made one decision and now i hesitate..

Sitting in front of my laptop..but i am not doing my usual..chatting with her.. she is there..but i can't text her..dun want to make her sad.. I am in no position of painting the colors of future with her..so i may as well let her paint her colors with someone else..

The emotion is different..you feel awkward and not comfortable..but i know that i have to wake up from my dream and move on.. i try so hard to refrain myself not to contact her..not to ask how is she doing..it is killing me..i dunt want her to judge me and think that i am fooling with her..

I dun want to hurt her..she deserves someone so much better.. and the feeling inside me is undescriable..knowing that one day she will be with someone else..

Decision..Decision

Have u ever made a decision?

I believe everyone must have made a decision before.. and tonite i have made a decision that i might regret for the rest of my life..

I promised not to love her.. She is the one tat i love dearly..we are not meant to be together..
we promised to let each other go.. i think tat is the fairest way to go..

i can't stop crying..i dunno why..i fell the pain..it is so real..and it hurts..well this blog is not supposed to be read by anyone at all.. it is just my media..my own world to express how i feel..

love is strange..it can turn someone into a cry baby in no time..

JJ..

Winter Blues

My feeling is a bit mixed up rite now..getting ready for work and the laziness comes..

Have u ever felt like that? i dun like being judged but i cannot tell people not to judge me..geez!! I hate this feeling..especially it comes from the one that you love dearly..