My mind tells me to let go, but my heart won't let me..

there is a time when logic and emotion clashes.. this is wat happens to me rite now..

I have no idea of wat to do.. i am suppose to make a decision and get on with it..but i am not..i made one decision and now i hesitate..

Sitting in front of my laptop..but i am not doing my usual..chatting with her.. she is there..but i can't text her..dun want to make her sad.. I am in no position of painting the colors of future with her..so i may as well let her paint her colors with someone else..

The emotion is different..you feel awkward and not comfortable..but i know that i have to wake up from my dream and move on.. i try so hard to refrain myself not to contact her..not to ask how is she doing..it is killing me..i dunt want her to judge me and think that i am fooling with her..

I dun want to hurt her..she deserves someone so much better.. and the feeling inside me is undescriable..knowing that one day she will be with someone else..